a notion for more motion.

it's been a month since my exams and time seem to fly by faster than you can say 'sigh, it's the end of the hols already.' 3 Ds and a credit as a reflection of my lacklustre efforts to prove that i actually do have a little determination to excel academically is probably as good as it gets. never thought of myself as the studying sort, and it's been a long time coming to say the least that i'll be commencing the final semester of my basic degree in a week's time.

most people would say 'heck, if you throw a peanut on a street full of strollers, chances are that you're going to hit one that holds a degree.' yes, attaining a bachelor's degree these days may be almost as easy as throwing peanuts out in the streets but it still mean a big deal to me especially coming from someone who despises lessons, doing homework and toiling through a lifetime of sucky grades from the day he began his education at primary school level. truth be told, i've accomplished many things in my 25 years but i can honestly say that i am reaching my peak, climax or boiling point whichever sounds nicer. it also subtly translates that i'm not much of a high-achiever and very much a slacker. i probably will never come to realise my full potential and be forever known as 'the one who promises much but delivers little'.

but having said that, i do want to pursue higher education, at least a master's degree. and something else other than the boring IT shite and marketing bollocks. would love to do psychology or anthropology. anything in relation to human behaviours and the evolution of mentalities. more so of the personal curiousity to learn and understand how people try to fit in, adapt, change and be influenced to doing things they never felt made any sense but yet otherwise. something different. something meaningful. something that strikes closer to the heart.

in the meantime, i'll just be mucking around with 4 more marketing units, taking in as much as i can and striving to be a good marketer. a brand new semester of opportunites and challenges i am hardly looking forward to.

strange and beautiful.

it has been 2 and half months now. what i have noticed being away, and still find it surreal, is how mornings in a foreign place with a special someone are profoundly different from what one is used to. every single morning brings a different set of moods. like a potent injection of wild flowers, it brings forth a scent of sweet delight and pure freshness. never fails to surprise. never predictable. always amazing.

i find the greatest pleasure in holding the hand of the one i said i loved last night, even though i meant it already everyday before yesternight . As i sit here typing, while she sits in class probably doddling 16 kilometres away, reminiscing of our past with the goofiness of the virginal blush of love on my face, knowing that i am, under no illusions, in a motion picture where i provide the words and she the pictorial images, accompanied by the music in a soundtrack that is hers and mine, to call our very own.

yes i am. here to stay. if she wants me to.